mood : devastated.
hello lovelies.
i cant believe it. my one and only kitteh Mimi died this morning. i was so upset i cried the whole day. i know i hated her but deep in my heart my love for her has always been there. i miss her. NOT! APRIL FOOLS BITCHESZX! hahahaha. i know right. omg la. im so lame. i know i could have made up something better but im just to lazy to think of a better one. dont worry people, Mimi is alright but she gave me an April Fools surprise herself. not really, but i like to think so. well, she left her poo outside her toilet. niiiiccccccceeeeeeeee~ i had to clean up after her. tsk. *stare angrily at Mimi*.
anyway, i've been thinking alot lately. things that i shouldnt think about. not about dirty stuff perverts. haha. well it's about my ex, Hariz. i cant deny the fact that i miss him alot. i know it's been 5 months since our break up but it's just so hard for me to forget him. i've brought up this matter to boyfriend and i really do appreciate that he understands me because not many guys understands me like he does. i feel utterly guilty that i have Faiz now but im still brooding about Hariz. *sigh* alot of things trigger my memories of him. i just miss being around him, especially his nonsensical jokes. well it is not my first time being in such depressing situation like this. it happened to me 2 years back. a guy name, Aidil, disappeared right before my very eyes till today. it took me almost a year to finally realize that he was never coming back and i finally gave up. so you see, special guys like Aidil and Hariz had made a big impact in my life that i can barely move on. i dont know whats wrong with me.
well this song really interpret what i feel. it's Walk Away (remember me)- Paula DeAnda ft The Dey. oh i like this version!
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that
I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does she rub your feet
When you've had a long day
Scratch your scalp
When you take out your braids
Does she know that you like tooPlay PS2 till 6 in the morning
Like I do
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we play
Show up on my doorstep(with a bouquet)
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say hey baby I love you
Like you used to
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)
I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me
The things we did
The way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friend, my love, my family
How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be
Sometimes I kiss her and wish that it was you I'm kissing
Sometimes I miss him and wish that it was you I'm missing
Sometimes I hug her and wish that it was you I was hugging
And I realize how much I'm bugging
I miss you
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm Gonna Remember YouYour Gonna Remember Me)
So hard to express this feeling
Cause nobody compares to you
And you know she'll never love you like I do
I can't explain this feelingI think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk AwayRemember You
(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)
(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)
well just so you know that some of the lyrics are not really relevant to me and what i really feel but yeah whatever. haha. but it's touching la kan. *insert sad face*but whatever it is, i still love Faiz no matter what :D
Baby im really sorry for everything. no matter how much i miss Hariz or whatever it may be, my love for you never change. i mean it. i want you to be my one and only. i love you so much sweetheart. im truly sorry.
