mood : ecstatic.
hello world.
HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!
(this may take awhile)
i spent my very last moments of 2008 surrounded by my parents, twin sister and strangers at Orchid Country Club Bowling. it's a very welcoming feeling to 2009 when everybody stood up and cheered together in harmony with such zest during the countdown. anyway, i was so in love with the bowling shoes because it looks like Nike Airmax. haha. and yes, I SCORED A STRIKE and i was 3rd. mom was first of course.
amazing. twelve months past right before my very eyes. now, a new year arrive all ready to escalate to many wonders that life is about to unleash. as i type this very moment, im reminiscing the moments i had last year. a fair balance of bitter sweet memories. all those ups and downs that life had put me into has made me a totally better person. i am proud of myself for overcoming the most important examination of my life without giving up eventhough i feel like it at times. i have learn to persevere, have faith and motivate myself to do my best. nonetheless, these wouldnt happen with the help and guidance from everyone of you who have one way or another, play a part in my life to make it a meaningful one. if it wouldnt be because of you guys, i wouldnt be what i am today. i am blessed to have every single one of you be part of my life. having all of you be in it is just rejuvinating and make my year an AWESOME one (:
aishah: gosh. i had a hella of a time hanging out with you. i will definitely miss your hilarious jokes, your history lessons during friday night class, the night we shared our feelings about that "bangla" and of course going back home with you EVERYDAY after school. thank you for being there for me when i feel like a loser and teaching me POA. haha. you taught me what a friendship is all about. i love you bestfriend (:
aqilah/qeelah: you. haha. i know we use to quarrel over silly matters. i really want to apologize for being such a fucker. you are really great friend and i was too arrogant to look down at your flaws but never realise the true and wonderful you. i really want to apologize for being such a motherfucker. let that be the past and just forget about it alright. i love your curls baby. thank you for giving me relationship advices and reminding me that hey, it is okay to miss your ex. last long with Saiful okay. i love so very much babe (:
liyana/leeyan: GOTHIC LOLITA! although we only got close this year, it's like i've known you since forever. oh we had a hella of a time during the Nov/Dec holiday huh?! from job hunting to guys (hahaha) to just chilling at Starbucks and actually working at Hyatt Hotel. macam nak mampos kan? hahaha. i miss you like 9876543210 times. anyway, thank you for being there for me when i feel shitified and lend me a shoulder to cry on. i love you alot hunny (:
ku nur amalina/KUU: babygirl, i miss you the most. im already missing the times when we dont even bother to listen in class, ditching lessons, stay up in the toilet every POA and social studies class and chomping down your mini chocos hahaha. i've got alot to tell you and i know you've got alot to tell me too. we need to catch up alright. kuu, thank you for being there for me when i feel out of place, deprived and emotional. you are the reason why i love being in class and just talking pure crap. I LOVE YOU!
kendra/ partner: 4 years of friendship and still counting. through these years, i've watch you grow into a more mature and beautiful young lady. i really appreciate every single thing that you've done for me. you never fail to make me smile whenever im down and approach me whenever im alone. it means the whole world to me. thank so very much dearest partner. i love you so much (:
rahidah/edah & arina: babygirls! i miss you like heaven! gosh. remember our guiding days? haha. kental i know. but what matters is what we have learnt from all of it. if it wasnt because of the both of you being "dumped" into girl guides, guides would be just a CCA and not a FREAKIN' AWESOME ONE! im singing Linger in my heart now reminiscing those very time we had. all the best in life with whatever choice of path you chose. i love you girls so very much.( Linger is a girl guides song)
atiqah/teeqa: firstly GET WELL SOON BABE! whatever you illness is, i hope you recover very soon. it is a heartache to see you this way. anyway, i totally going to miss D&T lessons. the times we used to talk about guys, relationships and friends. and of course im going to miss you defending me against my notorious ex, Salihin. haha. thank you for looking out for me. i love you babe(:
aniah/nieya: SAWONG! gosh i miss secondary two days. GSTB hood. haha. G=goblok : Syaza, S=sawong: nieya ,B=begok Dayang, T=tebiat: me. hahahahahahaha. i know it seems all kental but there's no one to blame. we were too young to think back then. though, i really miss having you get bullied by James, i also miss talking to you about almost anything. we havent been close since secondary 3, but you are still my bestfriend. i LOVE you many many.
nasrul/naz: GUE KANGEN BAGET SAMA KAMU! really really. haha. i miss your random jokes and you kutoking people. i especially miss geography lessons. you always bring joy to my life without fail although you may seem a little you know, irritating at times. but hey, everybody has their flaws right? anyway, thank you for teaching me trigonometry, circles, balancing chemical equation and many others. YOU WILL PASS ENGLISH FOR O LEVELS! FOR SURE! much love (:
dzulkifli: you haha. you never fail to put a smile on everyone's faces. your potty acts and hilarious lame jokes makes any environment a more happening one. i miss teaching you D&T although i know you never seem to get it because you prefer copying my answer during exam. thank you for teaching me a few maths sum that i cant seem to figure out till now. much love(;
shazilla & feezah: the 2 beings that knows everything. gosh, you can just ask them about almost anything and there they go blabbering the answer.they truly know how you feel and understands you like one does. thank you for mentoring me. i love you babes so very very much (:
iskandar/isk2: hey you! haha. we use to be together during sec 1 or 2 if im not wrong. whatever it is, im glad we are best of buddies now. thank you for reminding me that hope is always readily available. you make me smile and laugh like a jack ass and you make me feel elated when im dejected. much love (:
FafaMomok: im sure you deserve some credit. haha. although i've known you for like a month, it's like as if i've known forever. you never fail to make my day everyday. thank you for putting my mind of Hariz and letting me know that you are always here for me. it gives me great pleasure having you as part of my life. i want to let you know that you mean everything to me. thank you for all the sweet poem and gift but whats worth more than any of it is, YOU. babe, you gave me hope, faith and strength i never knew i had, to move on and cushion me with your pillar of support when i fall. wubz joo (:
Hariz: i must say that you are the best boyfriend i ever had. i've prolly said this for gazillion times but i really mean it. besides the fact that we are not together anymore, having you around was a blast. im deeply sorry that i havent been the best girlfriend to you but i really put in my all in the relationship. fate took me away from you and i have to accept the fact that we are not meant to be. however, i would like to thank you for everything. you taught me how love, give and share. i've found my own independence and pride to go along with me. baby, thank you for being part of my life and making me feel on top of the world. i miss you. much love (:
zakhwan/wan: im not sure if i spell you name correctly. haha. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! im truly sorry for shattering our heart to 29295693293 gazillion pieces because of you know what. whatever it is, you made me a better person inside out. i love you bestfriend!!(:
aidil/mysexylove: you were the reason why i look forward to everyday. you make me go head over heels. that was the past though. it is a shame that we've drifted apart. nevertheless, i am certain that you are having the time of your life. just be sure that you keep the promises you made to me. im blessed to have you in my life. i hope you and the girl of your choice are in a healthy and stable relationship. you have made me what i am today and i would like to thank you for the bottom of my heart. you were the guiding light in my darkest night. much love (:
my dearest class 4E2: 2 years in the same class. how cool can that be? you guys are the reason why i look forward to coming to school. thank you for making me feel right at home and making me feel contented in class. i hope that every single one of you would make it through O levels. we will be there together to collect the results. 2 more weeks guys! ALL THE BEST!! class motto: UNITY IN SINGLE MINDEDNESS (:
to the people who i lost friendship/contact for some reason. thank you, all of you, for making me realise that people like you exist in this world. somehow, you people make me a better person and i appreciate it alot. may your lives be blessed with your loved ones.
last but not least
MY LITTLEST TWIN SISTER IWANI/Jodie: your a pain in the ass, a whiner, a jack ass, a fucking idiot, a moronic bastard, a stupid minah and a slut at times BUT YOU ARE THE BEST THING THAT GOD HAVE GIVEN TO ME! alhamdillilah. what more can i ask for but a twin sister. you are my companion, bestfriend, father, mother, brother, grandmother, grandfather, aunty, uncle and of course THE COOLEST TWIN SISTER I EVER KNEW EXISTED! im sorry for not being the best elder twin sister you could ever ask for. i know that i may be a little over reacted, bitchy, demoralising and a total jack ass, but i've always tried my very best to make you feel elated and loved. i've made you feel like a pathetic loser but it makes me feel like a pathetic loser myself because i've hurt my one and only twin sissy. we've made it through 16 years together. life hasnt been the greatest to us since we were kids but having go through you is a pure blessing. seriously, i couldnt have imagine how my life would turn out to be without you. thank you for everything. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU. NOT EVEN DEATH WOULD DO US APART!
thank you for being such a friend to me, oh i pray a friend for life.
