i've got my veins all tangled up.

Sunday, November 30, 20088:21 PM

mood: *sulks*

hello all.
another sickening day at home. i'm so free and bored at home that i could count the number of tiles my house have for gazillion time. kay bedek. it's just a metaphor. haha. anyway, i would like to bless Bik Minah and spouse, Cik Dhan, a safe trip to Madinah/Mecca to accomplish Hajj.

yadayada. it's coming to a week since i applied for jobs and still i'm here at home jobless. not cool. anybody wants to recommend me a job? if you do, dont hesitate to tag me alright. i really need your help. moving on, it's been days since i've contacted boyfriend. ironic huh. i really dont know what's going on between us. i've done most of the "giving-in" part and i dont get the same from him. i understand that he is working but, isnt a simple text a burden? maybe i'm being too naive and conclusive but it's just too much. i just dont understand why i'm waiting for him. am i here just to be label your girlfriend?

i'm sorry for being such an emotional wreck right now, but this is how i really feel. i dont know what i should do. i have enough of giving in already. it's just not fair for me. besides, today is sunday, isn't he off? see, i dont even know. lets see how this goes. im just praying that everything would turn up fine between us. atleast i've got Wan and LeeyanLOVE to spurt everything out. thanks babyloves for the listening ear and advices (: im done for now.

where's hope, when misery come crawling?

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Friday, November 28, 20085:29 PM

mood: ESTATIC.

hello all. okay, i lied about my mood. i just want my mood to be estatic to replace my rather solemn soul. so i can't get enough of super pretty boy, Trace Cyrus. ahh, just look at him.*melts* i wish i was Hannah Beth. haha. yadayada. so finally, i've advertise my blog for everyone to see and get a new blog so that i can have a little space for my own thoughts. but not to worry about the current blog Jodie and i are sharing, we'll still continue to update (: yeah well if you people have notice, i had this blog since august haha. it's awesome that nobody knows. i love the colourful blogskin. it just makes me feel good and elated.

moving on to my current life, the managers from the jobs i applied are being such pain-in-the-ass. why? because none called. how awesome. great! now i have to spend my time rotting at home hoping they would call. hope? where's hope when misery comes crawling?anyway, Kuu:) and Zhilla called me yesterday to inform me about the pit they plan on 191208. i soooooo wanna go. i'm so up for it!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO THE EVER MOST GORGEOUS SHAZHILLA (centre)! her birthday was yesterday. oh she's legal already :) heh. i love you alot (:

note: there's a section in my blog at the left side where " MySexylove ". go check it out. who knows you might be there. i have not finish grabbing pictures of everybody so i'll update on it soon alright? so people, dont forget to tag me alright? much love ♥

oh kelsey.

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Wednesday, November 26, 20084:34 PM

mood: famished.

hello love.

look at him. isnt he pretty? i'm very sure you people know who this is.but for those who don't, this is Trace Cyrus. he is my current celebrity crush. whatever Hannah Beth, Trace is mine for now. haha. i must admit though, that Hannah is super gorgeous :) ahh, look at him...

yadayada. im still waiting for calls from the jobs i applied yesterday. as some of you might know, that i really do hate waiting. but hey, thats what i have to do for now. so suck it up. atleast there's my partner-in-crime KUU :) to entertain me for awhile. she wants me to work with her at sentosa. LOL. cool. i just went to the website but there's no "join us" links. oh fuck it. wouldn't it be cool if i got a job there, with KUU! i bet it'll be a total beserk experience. talking about beserk experience, i miss those classroom epitome when me and Kuu would chat in class like the world revolve around us. yeah, totally ignoring the lessons and spending 1 whole period stuck up in the toilet just camwhoring or chatting.

back! haha. gosh! chatting with Kuu was like drinking hot chocolate in a cold day. it's just satisfying and she gets your mind off things. it's been weeks since i saw her and the last time i saw was on grad night. we miss a lot of things now that we are so distant. especially our social life. now i really really miss "lessons" in school. i can safely say that the hot news we missed eversince school was over are now recovered just like potholes covered with cement :) awesome. well babe, i hope we wont lose contact but if we ever do, thank you for being such a sweetheart. you have been a sister to me, guiding me to the right path and cushion me with sincerity when i fall, that i myself is fond with such great ability you have. thank you for all the pep talks and valuable advices you have given me. you made my life even more meaningful and i cherish it. i will always love you with all my heart and pray that your life would always be blessed.

i know, it's a little to mushy, but that's what i really meant. where is those callers? aren't they suppose to call me? i'll prolly have to wait till friday. or else i'll go with kuu to sentosa and apply a job there. anyway, my little girl guides sisters have call me up for a picnic tomorrow at pasir ris park. meet you guys there :)

to boyfriend: baby, i miss you alot. really. i know you're working late hours and you must be extremely exhausted. i cant blame you for that. i just hope that we can meet up soon alright. love, you mean the whole world to me and you know that.

baby you can have whatever you like.aye.

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Tuesday, November 25, 200810:35 PM

mood: elated.

hello all.
oh today is simply awesome. why? because leeyan, jodie and i applied for a few part time job. i think we applied for about 8 jobs. haha. how cool. so the day started when we jodie and i met leeyan at the pasir ris mrt station. we went straight to marina square's john little because rumours has it that they need more casheirs. well, rumours, being well of course, rumours, part timers were not needed. i wasn't disappointed actually :)

so we made our way back to starbucks. we applied for it. the funny part was that, there's this section where they ask when you would like to start working, we all wrote, A.S.A.P. haha. yeah we were desperate you see. tried club marc but there wasn't any vacancy. such a bummer. we then made our way to suntec city. that was the fun part of the day. literally :)

went to afew places. i can't recall all. we applied at sun paradise and fashion lab. sun paradise is some swimwear apparel while fashion lab is well ladies apparels. tried aldo but we need to contact HR incharge name Ian. they need part timers so i'll prolly call him up tomorrow because apperently, he was not at his workplace -.-" . made our way to esplanade next. applied at arc and cool bears workshop. arc was super awesome. the guys there are super hot. haha. sorry boyfriend.

we then made our way to orchard cinleisure in hopes of getting a cool part time job. so we went up to level 5 to apply and straight to interview. wow. my first job interview. no wait, my second actually :) first was at imodels. the theatre cordinator was such a pain in the ass whereas the manager was super nice. the job wasn't that flexible actually. we have to work up to 6am in some days. kinda sucks right. well, i wasn't feeling it ya'll. besides, the bitchy cordinator was a total turn off to work with. the outfits they wore for work wasn't that pretty anyway. so unglam. haha.

we were exhausted by then so we went home. on the way to orchard mrt, imodels ambassadors came up to me again. o how awesome. i miss that feeling. haha. i told the lady that we already webt for the interview but mom wasn't up for it. bummer. oh yeah! then there's this 2 guys who approched us to buy tix for some party. they were like "hey girls! do you girls like to party and daaance?" we were like ooooooookay. then they said its a pre-sale tix so its cheaper and we can pay up at the door. the thing is, we are not legal yet. so not party boys. haha. thanks anyway. wow, we look 18 :)

bottomline is, i hope i get a call from any of the jobs i applied. im really hoping for starbucks, arc, aldo or IMODELS...not. haha. whatever. anyone will do. leeyan just called and she said her cousin has part time vacancies at Hyatt Hotel as some ushers. cool. if none call by the next 3 days, i'll take that job.

you're the one i have, you're the one i love, you're all i have.

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Saturday, November 22, 200810:37 PM

mood: pathetically normal.

hello love.
gosh what a day. such a bummer. why? because mom didnt want to follow jodie and i for the imodels interview. i was super dejected at that moment in time and i really felt like leaving her and take a cab home. but what's the use right? mom finally coaxed me in the train on the way back home. well, she told me that her friend was once a model. she's very exposed to the negative media and all. so mom didnt want me to be that way. she said she's okay with me being a model but, its the exposure to the outside world that refrained her from letting me join imodels. besides, mom said we had to pay huge sums of cash for the photoshoot itself. after much sugar coated pep talk , i was convinced but i still have a plan. i am going to join imodels when im legal which is like in 2 years time! haha!

so today was average.went to orchard because mom had to settle a few stuff at her work place.so jodie and i window shop at far east plaza. i wanted to thread my eye brows for fun but i changed my mind as soon as i saw this young lady having a hard time keeping still while threading.scary.i'll do it another time , another place :) then went to bugis to hire a maid. i hope warkonah would be willing to work for my family again.only if she's able to be contacted.walk around OG and headed home after that. so thats m day.nothing much really.

i miss boyfriend alot.he is working up to 11pm today.we've rarely contact eversince the last time i met him which was last weekend.im dying to meet him again.anyway, ive been doing well adapting to my new retainers! a round of applause to me! haha.oh yeah, today was the sentosa picnic.i didnt go of course.i hope my babygirls had a great time there.i miss them too! i need to see them.

G L A M O R O U S

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Thursday, November 20, 20083:09 PM

mood: nothingness.

hello all.

so finally, my bitchy phone is alright now. great. now i have re-upload everything back. thanks alot. met leeyan and jodie yesterday. i ask them to accompany me repair my phone. well, it was a blast of course. while my phone is with the hands of the professionals,haha, we went window shopping at TM and CS.had waffle dream ice cream at swensen. it just bring me back to perth.the day when i had my very first waffle ice cream.i miss perth.so then we went to toys'r'us.the big playdoh set really caught my attention.haha.well, i tell you what,TM's toys'r'us is super atrocious. i swear. if you people wanna get toys, got to other outlets.this one sucks big time.then dzul came out of the blues.haha.yadayada.today i had to stay at home to do household chores and finish up my chips plus re upload evry shit back into my phone.i miss boyfriend alot.random i know. :) chico is online. phaa~

just say it again and mean it.

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Tuesday, November 18, 20086:56 PM

mood: super FLY

oh hello there lovelies.

shit.i just spent the whole 20 minutes updating the wrong blog. -.-"

fuck it.

anyway, i dont wanna talk about today simply because there's nothing to talk about :)

so yesterday was a blast!

why?

1.met boyfriend again. his willingness to follow me despite his work in the night shift :) ty baby.

2.go job hunting with leeyanLOVE and jodieBOO.

3.interview at imodels international.

4.applied a part time job at nine west.

went here and there.

i was super tired but i cant help but keep walking and burning all my energy to keep up with speedy jodie and leeyan.

boyfriend and i was super exhausted tailing them.

how i knew boyfriend was exhausted?

he was very quiet.well too quiet.haha.

so the only turndown yesterday was the fact that i got in the terrible heavy downpour as soon as we reach dhoby ghaut.

there goes my first impression on my very first job interview at imodels.

shit fuck.

so boyfriend showed me his new viewty phone.

well it was not like what i expected it to be like.

why?

it looks sleek and stylish but the navigations like the texting and all is kinda difficult.

this phone is strongly not advisable for guys because guys tend to be a little rough on delicate fragile items like this particular phone.

so baby, just give me that phone kay.

you still have your old one right? :D

yadayada.

if i dont get the job at nine west then im gonna work at the american club as a camp facilitator.

how cool!

cant wait.

when it all falls apart.

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Sunday, November 16, 20089:03 PM

mood: pop pop popular.hah.

hello all.
so the picture above is taken during grad night.
well one of the many pictures.
so today, i stayed at home contented with the only source of entertainment, the tv of course.
gaaaah,i was super annoyed with friendster i swear.
first maintainence for like 3 days and now, i have no friends at all.
shit fuck.

tomorrow is my interview at i models international.1 pm.
meeting boyfriend,leeyan,jodie and prolly haziq.
thought of job hunting tomorrow :)
cant wait.
i hope im accepted at i models agency!
all the best to me.

i dont wanna wait for you.

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Saturday, November 15, 200810:27 PM

mood: elated. much.

oh hello all.

on 131108.

i met boyfriend. i miss him like heaven. it was such a relieve that atlast, i got to meet him after so long.

he was a acting a little quirky and cocky on that day.

however i had the best time of my life laughing at his potty humours.

gosh, i miss him already.

we hung out at kfc and pasir ris interchange.

so then left baby at 6pm and met up with jodie and abg an.

bumped into aidil,mysexylove.haha.

went all the way to cathay cineleisure to watch MADAGASCAR 2.

super awesome.

my rating is 5/5!so go watch it if you have not.

got a pretty bag from esprit courtesy of abg an and kak nana:) ty.

had a quick dinner at swensen when i realised that bai was working there.hah.

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141108.

oh so finally im braces free.

well, i have mixed feelings though.

im elated that finally after 3 years of hellish ulcers and continuous swearing im free.

im dejected because i sense that i lost something i treasure in my life.

my braces made what i am today, so i definitely feel attach to it you see :(

prom night was ironically great.

from 9-10.30 was super fun.

it was the dancing wannabe club kinda atmosphere.hhaa.

i danced my butt off. grinded a little.kinky. ;P

went home courtesy of aishah's parents.

rozzie won ms siglap! congrats.

p.s:kendra look super diff.pretty.

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151108.today.

4TH MONTH-SARY WITH MY BABYLOVE HUD HARIZ WONG YUN FENG!

our 4th month and still going strong. i really do hope that our relationship would last babe.

i love you boyfriend :D

so had my belated birthday so called party at hairul's place.

yadayada. nothing much.

so ill put up the pictures from prom night soon okays. some pictures still pending horr.heh.

i wont ever ask if you wont ever tell me.

i know you well enough to know you never love me.

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Wednesday, November 12, 20081:34 PM

mood: famished.

hello all.
i woke up with a rather elated mood. why? because i received tons of texts from people wishing me happy birthday close to midnight. thanks all, but i was already asleep.
so finally i got the text i've been hoping for my birthday, aidil's birthday wish.
yeah he did wish me at last :D thanks babe.

so just replied an overwhelming number of birthday wishes from friendster-ers.
again, thank you. all of you.
it just facinates me that even the people i dont know very well still have the time and heart to send me a liitle birthday wish.
it makes me feel that im special and i value these people very much.

i also want to thank my friends for posting up jodie and my picture on their blog wishing us happy birthday.
it's very sweet of you guys.
i love all of you alot.

well, to sum it all up, this years birthday was a blast! a hundred percent better than last year. the best part of this year was that, a guy name JEFF came up to us and offered us to work with him and his crew at i MODELS AGENCY! how cool! im up for it and i hope my parents are too. i cant wait for jeff's call!

what i got for this year's birthday:
1.ipod shuffle
2.zara dress
3.picardo wallet
4.socks
5.hair clip
6.bag
7.baby's present which i've yet to receive
8.accesories
9.birthday messages from all the social net works :D
10.THE VERONICAS HOOK ME UP ALBUM!

everyday i sit here waiting,
everyday just seems so long.

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Tuesday, November 11, 200810:17 AM

mood: super A W E S O M E :D

oh hello all.
today's the day! today's the day!
yes today marks the end of the gruelloing o level examinations and most certainly MY BIRTHDAY!
yeah well, jodie's birthday too.heh.
so today's plan is to go shopping and job hunting with my birthday buddy, jodie!
can't wait!can't wait!

to those who have wished me and given me the presents which i dont expect at all.
THANK YOU.
all of you.
what makes me even more elated is that people who i dont really know wishing me happy birthday.
how cool?
thank you for making my day even more meaningful and special.
im pretty sure this year's birthday would be so much more enticing!

im still waiting for aidil's birthday wish.haha.
unexpectedly he texted me yesterday.
but in a different intention.
he changed his number -.-"
at least he inform me or else i'll be super upset.
oh yeah rizal also texted me unexpectedly.
dang, super coolness. :)

to jodie:
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BABE!
you know, the letter you gave me was awesome.really.
im sorry i havent got you anything, but i'll give you something today.
dont worry.
wow, 16 years of existence on earth living together.
seriously, i dont know how my life would be like without you.
you are like strepsils. i being the sore throat.why? because...
when im in trouble, you cover up for me and saved my skin.
when im in doubts, you were the one who cleared it.
when im in pain, you were there to support me and gave me hope to move on.
when im in boredom, you never fail to crack me up.
when i needed someone, you were the one who lended me your listening ear.
when i fall, you pick me up and said hey, we'll stand up together.
when im sick, you were there to assist me in anyway you can.
you are my everything and you mean the whole world to me.
im sorry for being such a pain-in-the-ass at times and detiorate your feelings.
im sorry for my unintentional blow ups that might affect you in anyways.
and im really sorry for not being the perfect elder sister to you.
but all of these made me better person inside out.
without you, i wont be who i am today.
i wish we could spend another year together again.
so to sum it all up, you're the best twin sister i could have ever ask for.
i pray for you're safety and well-being.i hope you are blessed with love and care.
all the best for your future ahead.
I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!

love,
oh macy ee.

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Friday, November 7, 20081:46 PM

mood: mellow.

hello all.
oh what a day.i've been sitting at home for hours and all i ever did was the only source of entertainment i had, the tv and computer.
yeah well that's because baby is busy working and my dear jodie is ill.
so im left all alone.
im pretty bumped out that jodie is ill and i had to entertain myself.
i miss her hyper hoohaa self.
gosh, i cant live without her.
i cant imagine how im going to live without her crappyness,humours well, everything.
this just shows that she means alot to me and i love her more than anything in this world.
i just want her to get well soon.

rest well babe. get well soon :)

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Wednesday, November 5, 20083:40 PM

oh yeah, this was taken last week. we had our ROXYSKA reunion party at lissaLOVE's place.

we had candle bbq marshmallow which turned out not bad at all,drinks,fireworks and pure fun.

we then headed to play pool while in the game of bowling.haha.

it's called multi tasking people.

mood:full.

hello all.

so yeah i've changed my blogskin.suppaaah awesome.

i know it's pretty simple but i like the animation. it's so cool.

i just came back from a quick lunch at elias mall mcd with jodie.

my stomach feels like a full tank of petroleum. gosh.

i cant put anything in anymore.

anyway, im a little upset that my hair didnt turn the way i expected it to be.

i dyed my hair last week.deep burgandy from revlon.

i makes my hair look even darker .

so i bought a brighter colour to re-dye over my current hair state.

the colour is grenadine which is reddish brown from garnier.

i hope its better.

i thought of dyeing my hair today but i dont feel like it.haha.

i'll do it tomorrow when im free.

i'll blog to you about it.

okay im so bored right now.

ive got nothing to do really.

i miss eating asian food.

ive been eating fast food eversince last sunday.haha.

mom havent been cooking since forever.

i kinda miss her cookings somehow.

countdown:

- 6 days till SWEET SIXTEEN!

- 6 days till END OF O LEVELS!

- 9 days till BRACES FREE!

- 10 days till 4TH MONTHSARY WITH BABYLOVE!

okay done.

closer,closer,lean on me now.

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Tuesday, November 4, 20081:11 PM

mood: nothingness.

hello ya'll.

ahh yes i know, you miss me. well i miss you even more.really:)so today is the second last o level paper.awesome.you know, i've been antcipating the moment when i dont even need to bother about studying.ahh i cant wait for 111108.well it not only mark the end of my secondary tertiary life, but whats more important is that it's my sweet sixteen.sweet.another year older, wiser, stronger and mature. cliche? i know. but hey, face it, it's true.baby is planning my birthday trip. haha.he told me he bought for me something already :)cant wait! i just hope he's not working on that day.or else im going to sulk like i never sulk before.literally.

yadayada.so today's dnt paper was average.not that tough neither too easy.so after the paper, ais,jodie and i hit back to my crib to get cash cause we wanted to go to ws.phaa~ i've been there like trice this week.gawwwd.so bought a few stuff and headed back home.

im in an emotion hit called paranoia. yeah. it's not those shitty epitome fucker but it's about grad night. haha. yeah why? because i have no bloody idea on what to wear during that occasion.firstly, it's located in downtown east ballroom which kinda sucks.secondly, mom is gonna pick MY grad night dress. shit. im screwed. really. i hate this. i cant imagine wearing a freking "nyonyanyonya" dress there laa. she always assume that she knows the "in" trend now which happens to be like way back in the 17th century. whatever it is, i hope i dont look sucky on that day.

did you know,she's dancing at the disco.wo-ah,she's dying on the dancefloor

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