mood: sloppy;rather famished
i've been fasting for three days now.i find it pretty fast.i just have the urge to open the refrigerator and grab some bite but no, im strong.fasting month is the holiest month and i must act upon it as a muslim.i know i may not be strong in my religion but islam is in me.i know god is there watching over me.giving me all the strength to carry on with all the intimacy through this pure month. im blessed. blessed that i get to to have what i want and what i need.i have faith in Him.to all muslims reading this selamat menjalani ibadah puasa :)
i get rather mundane and restless lately.preliminary exams is like when? next week and i've yet to cover all my weak subjects. i dont know.i need to start revising. seriously, i dont want anymore red marks splatter across my results slip again.it's depressing.there's something in me, who really wants to let loose and not bother about studies.pretty much suck i guess.no. i wont let my sub-concious mind take over me.i wont.
yesterday was awesome. i went out to actually study with jodie and ais. well babes, you made my day. thanks alot for all those never ending concern about me and those littlest jokes that just cracks me up.going out with you guys are the best!really:) i manage to do a little shopping after 4 hours of intense studying in the ever quiet walls of the library.my braces on the other hand is still hanging in place;on my teeth.i really had high hopes that it would be taken off but i was turn down.utterly disappointing.so next appoinmet to the dentist is 14 november which is like 3 days after my sweet sixteen.i'll be removing my shiny braces and replacing it with a rather hopeless retainers.
i miss my boyfriend badly.it's been like when? 3 weeks i guess since we last met.sucks big time.i dont know until when will i manage to meet him again.because why? his n levels has started this week followed by my prelims plus fasting then follow up closely by my o levels! nonetheless, he's the sweetest little sweetheart ever:) he send me this text:
"baby,we'll probably not meet for a very long time with fasting, hari raya, my n's and your o's.but i wanna let you know that i'll always love you okay?"
it's rather pleasing to know that he do love and care about me.and yes i feel same way too.i believe that love lies in its power to unite individuals.each one of us do have a partner in life.appreciate what you have for now.
darling, i miss you so badly
