mood: disturb
aidil, my then sexylove just texted me. i got a rather rude awakening when he said he wants help from me. from there on, i know there must be a huge problem because no small matter would he turn to me. so it's about his crush and her rather disturbing past. i'll just put it that way. i know he was undeniably hurt and extremely upset. i could just feel those negative energy being transferred into me. he even injured himself. seriously, i hateseeing him this way. i know aidil as an outgoing, hilarious, butt-kicking and lovable guy. you know what hurts evenmore? him actually crying. i cant believe a guy such as aidil would actually tear down. he must have love that girl alot. aidil listen, you have to accept for who she already is. put the past behind. give her your fullest support because im sure she needs it alot from you and i know you would have no problems doing so.dont discriminate her.she had the the courage to tell you and im sure she would have the hardest time in the world doing so. i've known you enough. your inner and outer qualities. if you really do love her than do whatever i spurt out earlier. please, i dont want to see you this way.i just hope that everything would work out well for you.
people, human beings like you and i are gifted. the most precious and significant gift that no other living things have. feelings, emotion and the ability to think.we are given these to go through life in many different ways. it's the matter of how your life leads. we are all not perfect i agree with that. we go through feelings and emotion to make us understand our surrounding; especially the people all around you. imagine a world without emotions and feelings? our whole life would be so solemn. thus the abilty to think makes us evenmore unique.we do things with our mind constantly telling us what to do.but it's the matter whether you want to follow or repel. these gifts made specially for you are gifts that you should treasure a lifetime and with every mistake you've made learn from it!
back to me,my day,my life. well, nothing much. sat for mathematics paper 1 earlier on today. i thought it would be somehow like mid-year, but no, it's evenmore demoralizing. as soon as i flipped the pages i saw sets and diagrams, probablities and constructing triangles. i was in deepshit. i've made a profusely dumb mistake of not revising those topics the day before. whatever. now that it is over, i can only pray for the best. i have faith. relying o my paper 2 would help me pass if only i put in so much more effort than today. yes. i am being pretty optimistic.
anyway, im having night self study later so im going to breakfast outside. countdown to 2nd month-sary: 3 DAYS BABY!
thank you for being such a friend to me,
oh i pray a friend for life.
