mood: rather bored
as i type down my current post, i have a train of thoughts. however, i just dont get the point of it. the gist of my thoughts is about friendship.what is friendship? really. for the past existance here on earth, i havent really get the true sense and feel of friendship. it's hard. literally. yet, i envy others. they have so much fun with their friends but me on the other hand is just playing along with my so called friends. my friends who i think i can trust are just plain cunning. they themselves do hide secrets behind me and lay upon remarks. or maybe im just being naive. i dont know what's the point for me to type this down but i have to let this go. i just feel a sense of ambiguousity that i never felt friendship is meaningful.nonetheless, through all these seemingless "friendship", i truly understand myself. to be a little optimisic about things does help. help in such a way it makes you feel way better. im fine now. is just that sometimes, people do put themselfves before others. i find it rather self-obsessive but yet again, this is part of life. nobody is perfect. our lives are specially made and given to us in such a way we are different from each other. so that not one being is the same. from there, we learn from each other and weakness we have and therefore enhances our true self.in that way, we benefit in many different ways. face it, life is a bitch at times but you have the right to choose if you want it to go your way or other people to choose it for you. well,what is friendship without someone? anyone?
'cause everybody's changing and i dont feel the same.
